I named this Issue “Stone” as a metaphor. A few weeks later I got a job at a concrete plant. If that’s a joke from the universe it’s kinda not funny, kinda. Chief (my last welding job) fucked me sooooooo bad. I was out of work for almost 2 months, worked 2 shitty jobs for a few days, & got denied unemployment. Since I didn’t get any unemployment I drained my 401k. There was about 2 bands in it so not awful, but I needed the money bad. Found a new printer & decided on what blanks I wanted to use going forward. Literally started all over, in every aspect of life too. It’s crazy. It’s scary too because I was getting comfortable where I was.
I guess it was a wake up call too. Being in Charlotte all the time I’ve met people that live the lifestyle that I want so I know that’s attainable. I guess I was just kind of content in my job because it paid my bills, gave me spending money, and it was five minutes from the house less than five minutes from the house so I had nothing to complain about. Now we’re waiting for the new merch to get made. A new fuel pump for Jethro, and my first check lol.
Going through all of this really made me think about what I really wanted out of my life. Like it is so easy to fall into this mundane lifestyle. I wasn’t worried about money because I got paid every week, not a lot but it was still something. I saved money, for what? Idk! But it gave me a sense of safety knowing it was there. And after living off of it for almost 2 months I’m glad I had it.
Moving forward I want to be intentional with every action I take. Time flies bro, I feel like an old man saying “ I graduated in 2019 ”. Like damm bro that was 6 years ago but it feels like yesterday. I might not like the concrete job but it’s money. It’ll give me the opportunity to build the shop, fix Jethro, and invest into the brand. And for that I am grateful. But. There is no potential for growth there & nothing to help me elevate myself, so I can’t stay there too long. I guess as my frontal lobe continues to develop my awareness does too. Listen to me sounding like a mature adult or something lol.
What I will say before I get out of here is that it’s hard being an adult. Especially in your twenties. Feels like college all over again. Trying to find my place in the world n whatnot. I feel down on my ass in April not gonna lie, & it affected my mental health and got to me. But I’m good. Now I got a flame under my ass. Because I don’t want to work a laborer job forever & literally destroy my body for a company that will easily replace me. I have to much potential to settle. Anyways until next month. Peace is hard to find. Nirvana Prime.