May. That devious mf. I’m not gonna lie May started off strong, started it off good. But in the last 10 seconds of the last quarter everything just went to shit. Wait am I allowed to cuss on here? I am? Good. It went to shit.
As far as my welding job it was fine. Until I got out of night shift because there was only one welder. So now my hours are 7pm-6am. It’s cool I get paid more so I’ll get used to the hours. Days have 14 welders, night has 2 now. They want the same output for nights as days. I’m great at welding not goodly. AND. They save all the mess ups for nights so it takes me longer to do my job.
But it’s whatever. I had a show in Charlotte like the 2nd week of May. The organizer left 30 minutes into the show and told me it wasn’t her job to promote my booth. It was my job to promote the show and it’s my fault I didn’t get sales. Mind you there were no signs for the event, it was hosted in a parking with high privacy fences. And she left. I left the cover for my tent at home & sat in the sun for 5 hours, when I got back in the car I was a redbone lol.
Despite all of that I was like “it is what it is” and the Jinx god was like “Bett, I got something for you”. I come back to Clemson AGAIN because I have welding school graduation in Greenville. My car breaks down an hour before… So I’m stuck in Clemson and I have to work tomorrow. So my mom has to drive 3 hours to get me so I don’t get fired. Fun times.
Every time I think I’m doing good I get knocked right back on my ass lol. I know I’ve been given these trails to make me a better person so I don’t complain (too much lol) but it’s like geez Louise can I get a lil break lol.
In the end I want everyday to feel like a vacation. Everyday I am happy and have free will to do whatever I want. I know it’s a process, one that I’m gonna see it through. It’s just nice to express myself in a way that isn’t sleeping lol. And Jarrett, Milaan, Tobi, all of my dawgs when I make it I’m gonna take care of all of y’all. you guys support me in everything I do.
I’m not gonna lie sometimes my optimism runs a little low. And I get in a little funk, but it’s like the sun splits the clouds and I’m good again. I made a trailer for Nirvana and I watch it sometimes at work and it motivates me to keep going. I could’ve said a lot more but this is just the spark notes for this month lol. The backyard is clean now so I might start a campfire podcast. Until then. Peace is hard to find. Nirvana Prime