I just wanna start off saying I am so proud of myself. A whole year of Nirvana Magazine monthly is crazy, & hopefully there are many more years to come! Running a business is hard. Especially when you’re doing it by yourself, don’t know what you’re doing, while growing as a person can feel overwhelming. Some days I don’t want to do it to be honest. Some days it feels like the brand is never going to succeed. But I use that as motivation. The job I’m working rn might wear me tf out but it’s helping me get shit done for the business.

     I come up with my best ideas on the clock. Not when I’m at home chilling, not at the gym, nowhere else. I only get good ideas in the middle of an important task on the clock lol. My main problem is that I had misguided ambition. Like I had an idea but did not know how to execute it. I know I haven’t been posting YouTube videos like I should have or being as active on social media. Plus is does not help that I don’t go outside on the weekends either lol.That’s my fault and I take full responsibility & it’s gonna change.

     This has been my slowest month not gonna lie. When I tell you I haven’t done anything, I haven’t done SHIT lol. Well, I have been thinking about the future, where I wanna go, what I want to do, coming up with new designs, just developing stuff. Can’t rush perfection. But it’s still slow lol.

     Jethro will be running faithfully by the end of January (you can quote me on that). I will have a actual vlogging camera so the YouTube vid quality should be better and more consistent ( DJI Pocket 3 with mic) aaaannnnnnddddddd I’M GOING TO GO OUT MOREEEEEEEE. RRRRAAAAAAWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRR. If you know me I’m a very social person. I might be shy at first, but if you say something anything to me we’re already best friends lol. 

     But I’m so excited for the new year. I have so many plans & ideas, with the time and sometimes the money to execute it. If you read these magazines every month I truly do appreciate you. I kinda use this as an outlet to vent but to be honest at the same time. I can’t wait to look back on these when I get old lol. 

     My job owes me 3 months back pay on a raise they should’ve given me, I get my taxes back, and get a bonus in march. Some is going to savings but probably 45% of all of those are going into nirvana. Anyways I’m done yapping for now, until next month big dawg.